Somewhere In Between Life And This World

Are we getting closer or moving away? Somewhere in between life and this world, here I am trembling with heart gasping, crying and calling you. Our self-ordains have been washed out and I remain as the smell of the soil. Thoughts into thoughts mixed up but in between I got a way to tell you that who you are and what we are. Shaping these thoughts is less than nothing but living into. 

My Way Of Telling That How Much I love You

I can write like nothing and though it’s nothing I can feel it.
Those disturbed waves long way into the river, like water floating on a
flat surface. Like two of them, water and those waves.
Waves *caresses*
Water *trembling*
*Waves whispered* Don’t be afraid I am from your inside. You all have darkness
inside and it is so beautiful. You know how beautiful you are? You reflect the moon,
the stars, the sky, the whole universe is in your inside and
this is my way of telling that how much I love you.

The one to be loved forever and thus I love with all contentment

She talks to me so close that I can see her soul

Moving self and contemplating soul

She feels pain as pleasure

She keeps secrets as treasure

Making a whole new universe inside where she belongs to

Much more beautiful than the world where she lives in

Her eyes saying everything what she has inside

Her smile covering all the hang ups she came across.

I could have seen her self but I just saw her soul

The far most beautiful and reflecting the inner me

The one to be loved forever and thus I love with all contentment

That's My Home

Where rain sprinkled glasses keep their silence
Where the snow falling outside slowly onto the ground
Where the birds are chirping from a corner of the house
Where the doors are moaning all day long
Where the blowing wind making me smile
Where its no darker than night and no brighter than light
Where its no one except me
This is my home
This is my life

I Move Further Into My Lonliness

I don't believe in incarnation but I live I die and I live again every inch of me and it continues.

What If I get hurt? What if I meant to get hurt? Its okay. The pain wont last for longer. But I will be me forever. I know how to live my life, but why I am not able to make it happen? Because of the self which is inside.

"Fanoos bankar jiski hifazat hawa kare 
Woh shama kya bhujhe jise roshan khuda kare" 

"Ki Muhammad se wafa tune toh hum tere hain
Ye jahan cheez hain kya Loh-o-Qalam tere hain."

I know how beautiful these lines are and how truly it mean  but I got vexed with the war between me and my self. I know I am not from here and I end up leaving my self here in this buggerland with my soul into another place. The place where time doesn't exists, the place which is indefinitely bigger than this world. Leaving the trails behind now I move further into my loneliness.
ah!!! My loneliness. You don't even know how much I love you and you'll be with me forever. 

Wailullaka Ya Rizwan, Illam yagfirlaka Rabbuk.

Main Chala Apni Khudi ke Shikar

I now bewail leaving to find the secrets of self. Wandering through the narrow way down to the roots. I now whimper no more, postpone no more, need nothing. Here it is a realization, an efflux into the soul. I love this road more than anything else. Which is being wise, heading to the indefinite place and sculpturing the human race.